Search SEARCH

Got anxiety about future and need help!(kind of long and a tad too anxious)?

2010, so far not too good a year for me, I developed insomnia in January and diagnosed with some sort of mental disorder(Anxiety disorder by docs at a metal rehab place, suggested to be bipolar by others and some other disorder that I don't remember by my therapist) so maybe I'm just overreacting but either way my time is up. It was the last day of school today and I'm supposed to graduate next year and well... I'm f****d! I have, well had an idea of what I wanted to do. Go to film school and live out some stupid childish dream of winning some d**n Oscar for best director(head is too high in the clouds, right?). I'm seriously bored and depressed with my life, nothing seems meaningful, even my dreams. I'm scared of the future, everyone around this crappy little Arizona town does nothing with their lives, some try and some say but don't, all fail! My uncle is 30, he lives off his sister, all my cousins as well, my shit father who abandoned me lives with his mom, I'm pretty sure he's 40 by now. I don't want this to happen to me but I don't have a f*****g clue what to do! I'm so anxious about time, it goes by way too fast! Before I know I'll be old and it scares the living shit out of me! I have A.D.D. and I haven't had good grades in my life. I'm supposed to take some alternate school for people in my position, I can't even pay attention in classes I like. The A.D.D. and the mental disorder just f**k with my mind, I can't comprehend things in my head right, it just gets all mashed up and scrambled. The only thing that I want seems to be some f*****g strange fantasy I got from the movie "Fight Club". Why? I grew up without a father and have dealt with masculinity problems since childhood, all the guys and girls can do manual labor and I can't. I hate this so much, I always hear, "Be a man!" "Don't be a pussy" etc... etc... I'm terrible and unconfident with girls and I'm not very well endowed. I took strength and conditioning this past year, didn't work, my two cousins are muscled up douchebags and I'm a skinny loser who lives in his head! I have literally no talents, tried writing(give up all the time) and I suck. The only thing I'm good at is being a miserable b*****d! The military might toughin me up and discipline me or as I like to put it: " justifiable suicide". Why haven't I killed myself? Because of my d**n conscience, I can't hurt my mom and family but I can't keep living like this. I just need some advice besides mum saying everything will be alright. I can't sleep, am very unhappy, anxious about everything and wishing I'd get assassinated or hit by a car, anything but living with whatever I'm feeling!

Asked By: LiL DEBBIE! - 5/26/2010
Best Answer - Chosen by Asker
Well, something to know is that all of your problems can disappear. It may not be easy, but people in your situation or worse have finally come out of what they were in... More
Answered By: Jordan - 6/3/2010
Additional Answers (2)
Wow! I just have to say that it takes balls just to put yourself out there like that. I myself has had social anxiety disorder, general anxiety disorder, depression, agorophobia and alcoholism for years, and my main problem was not sharing what was going on with me and the things i was experiencing with anyone because... More
Answered By: Chris - 6/3/2010
 
i'd go -- assasinated by car that might b neat
Answered By: EDDIE b - 6/3/2010
 
Sponsored results
Over 483 Local Jobs Now Hiring In Your Area. $18-$87/Hr - Apply Today!
Jobs.Quick-com
Click. Search. Apply. Free!
www.JobDiagnosis.com
Jobs hiring near your local area. Part-time, Full-time, Work at home.
www.HiringLocally.com
Get Your Degree Online Sooner than You Think. Financial Aid Options
Degree-Accredited.com/Degree

Other Career Questions

What is your current job? Why did you choose this job? What do you enjoy about your job? What do you dislike about your job? What would be your perfect job? Would you rather have this j...
3 answers - Asked By: drop pants not bombs!.♥ - 3/2/2010
Where are the jobs? Is productivity and globalization creating a permanent “recession” of jobs? My main issue is I am doing a paper for school and have no idea where to begin. I was hoping suggestions...
4 answers - Asked By: bayebd24【ツ】 - 11/21/2007
Hi ok im 19 and about to start college to do an acess course into a university. Ive been browsing through all the courses and im tottaly stuck! I thought politics but im scared ill end up with some r...
1 answers - Asked By: roseparkerly - 1/26/2009

Content is not owned or controlled by Monster. Any content concerns should be addressed with Yahoo!
Yahoo! Does not evaluate or guarantee the accuracy of any Yahoo! Answers content. Yahoo! Disclaimer.

Popular Articles

Best-Paying Work-from-Home Jobs Article Rating
It’s easier than ever to work from home. Of course, not every job is a mobile job, and some companies aren’t interested in having their employees work from home.
2013 Marketing Jobs Outlook Article Rating
The US may be facing another year of anemic hiring overall, but that won't be the case in the high-orbit world of multichannel, digital media marketing.
For Employers: Post Jobs | Search Resumes | Advertise
About Monster | Work for Monster | Advertise with Us | AdChoices | Partner with Us | Investor Relations | Social Media
Terms of Use | Privacy Center | Accessibility Center | Help | Security | Contact Us | Sitemap | Mobile
©2014 Monster - All Rights Reserved U.S. Patents No. 5,832,497; 7,599,930 B1; 7,827,125 and 7,836,060 MWW - Looking for Monster Cable? - V: 2014.1.40.24-219
eTrustLogo