I really don't want to live anymore?
I honestly have nothing to live for. I'm 17 years old. I've had a tough childhood due to family problems and I got bullied for 6 or 7 years. The bullying led to me dropping out of school at the beginning of year 11 so I didn't do my GCSE's which has resulted in me having no qualifications. I'm a very shy and quiet girl as I suffer with Social Anxiety. I also have depression, low self esteem, body dysmorphic disorder and I might have bipolar. I also self harm because physical pain is easier to deal with than emotional pain. I'm not your average teenager. Most teens are very popular and are out drinking, getting high and having sex...then there's me....barely any friends and stuck in my room literally all the time. I go to college but I'm seriously considering dropping out. Some times I think I should stay in college because I want a decent job when I'm a bit older but I feel I won't be good at any job as everything involves people and people are literally my biggest fear :/ I don't talk to anyone. My mum tells me to get a job and move out.....but I can't as I have no GCSE's and how am I going to explain why I dropped out of school? :/ I don't want to tell them about my mental problems. I honestly hate myself so much. I'm so ugly and the world would be so much better without me being here. I always plan ways of killing myself and I constantly imaging me cutting myself and stuff....... I have some high hopes and dreams for the future but nothing is gonna happen.... I feel like life is just a race? everyone grows up, works, has families then dies... so if I killed myself..I would technically be winning the race. I'm so f****d up seriously :/ someone help me btw I go to therapy but it doesn't work for me... I'm too scared to be honest with her:/ I'll get sent to a mental hospital or something. I have to say thank you sooo much guys for the support! It means so much to me :) you're all amazing
Asked By: Megan - 4/12/2012
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I'm going to tell you something right now, u are AMAZING! You've made it this far it would e a pity to drop out more, what if tomorrow a boy was to say "I love you (insert name)" what are you studying. I'm not out partying, losing my virginity or getting drunk either, I've never had a boyfriend... More
Answered By: Hope - 4/15/2012
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Honestly, you see your life as horrible now but once you get older you'll look back and laugh at those cowardly bullies, and everyones who's ever put you down... More
Answered By: Sophs - 4/12/2012
dont give up on life sometimes and very often it can be a b***h but sooner or later it will get better and if u need to talk to someone go on a chat room or something and if u dont want to then email me email@example.com dont kill urself and dont drop out cuz then ur gonna be depressed about that to
Answered By: Joe - 4/12/2012
Apply for McDonald's or KFC... More
Answered By: ™ʎllıq®® - 4/12/2012
It's okay, do not feel like you're alone. There are so many other people in the world feeling the same as you. Firstly, tell your mum how you're feeling and that you're having therapy and that you dropped out of school if she doesn't already know. If she does know, tell her that therapy isn't really working for you... More
Answered By: Jenna - 4/12/2012
PLEASE DON'T give up on your self! I can't say anything about you looks because I have not seen you.I think you are honest with your self. that is hard the next hardest thing is being honest with your Mother and your therapist. Both need to know, how you feel. therapist are slow in prescribing pills but they can help... More
Answered By: pigwell - 4/12/2012
When you talk about the "average teenager," that's the impression of the average teenager, nothing more. That's not even the majority of teenagers. I'm a teenager, just a bit older than you, who knows a lot of teenagers, and the majority are not like that. There are very few people who really have a lot of friends at... More
Answered By: Skyline_pigeon - 4/12/2012
I have experienced this myself, when I was a child. I was very shy and quiet but what kept me going was my family support... More
Answered By: pink apple - 4/12/2012
Don't k***********f. You can talk with confidence and anonymity on the suicide hotline.
Answered By: Anna - 4/12/2012
Remember that the best form of suicide is to kill your old life and build a new 1 change everything. visit yourlifeyourvoice.org to talk to a free online councellor. look up exercise and depression online it releases endorfins which improve mood and brain chemistry. and Art Therapy; channelling what ur feeling into... More
Answered By: petee p - 4/12/2012
I feel the same, but I'm 15. Although, I have a kind of philosophy which really helps - maybe you should make one? You need to get inspired... These hopes and dreams you speak of; by saying 'but nothing is gunna happen', you're immediately helping to ensure that they do not happen. You shouldn't do that to yourself... More
Answered By: Jamie - 4/12/2012
Answered By: kailey - 4/13/2012
You may not want to live anymore, but your friends & family do. And so do I. And I don't eve know you. I'm 16 and suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and depression. You would not be 'winning' if you killed yourself. You'd be missing out on all the happiness of life. I know it's scary and sometimes you feel like... More
Answered By: Haidyn - 4/14/2012
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