 | For example, I met an old high school friend... He was out of a job, and I wasn't working. I told him, he can use my car to find a job, he found one... I still take him back/forth to work, yes, he pays me gas. I am still out of a job (btw, the girl, he use to work w/, got him this job)... I clean his house, give his dog a bath, drive him backnforth to work...
He works as a GM for a hotel, and refuses to hire me... but he did hire his friend, who needed a second chance (she was unreliable, and undependable, missing over 10 days of work, in 90 day period), later on, she got fired, again... because the housekeeping supervisor got tired of her, missing too many days.. He is resentful because she got fired...
When I ask him, about a job.. He would make excuses or whatever... I finally caught on to his excuses.. He has never given me a chance. He always text other women, infront of me... and he doesn't understand why I get upset, when I see text messages of I miss you, or any sexual innuendos.. He told me he has slept w/ his coworkers (housekeepers, etc)..He would talk for hours about his work, or other women, or his bad childhood... I counseled him, gave him compassion, understanding... helping him vent out things... but when I share information about myself... its like.. He leaves the room... or... says I talk too much (and I am thinking.. geez.. I sit here, for hours hearing you talk... and.. I can relate w/ you, understand your pain... but when I share.. its like... He blows me off) totally disrespectful...
I know I don't have big boobs, beautiful face or excellent personality, but I am willing to help and care about you...I will deny my life, to make sure, you are doing ok... but when I am hurting.. or whatever.. He treats me so disrespectfully.. and when he talks to others.. I notice he gives half truths... when He would talk to the girls on the phone, infront of me.. He would tell me to hush.. (so they won't know)... or if the girl says, are you sleeping w/ her (like w/ me), he would say no... which is a lie....
What is wrong w/ me? or am I just low maintenance... He doesnt ask his other friends (girls) for ride to work.. maybe because they are high maintenance... he has told me, he spent over 300$ for tattoo's, and hair straightening... but.. I just get gas money, etc... less than 20 bucks.. I tell him, ask your girls for a ride... He just uses me, disrespects me, he even hit me out of play... (He tapped on my arm, 3 times, and apologises, I said, its ok.. it didn't hurt... then he pounded on my arm 3 times w/ his fist) I was like... what the?? that hurt...
I don't understand why men treat other women, better than me.. what is wrong w/ me? and how does women manage to get what they want, from guys... am I a push over, low maintenance or just easy to get taken advantage of... I know we are suppose to forgive... and be patient... I have talked w/ him, and get no where, except "I haven't done anything wrong" type convo... so I am left w/ hurts, anger... and I want to hurt him back... He is not listening to my hurts... and so I let it go... keep quiet.. and find a way to hurt him back.. I know that isn't right.. but I have seen my mom get abused by men, and myself, as well... She forgives them, etc.. and still has the welcome mat on her back... I get mad at her, for allowing men to hurt, and use her... she totally disrespects herself... so now, when I meet a man who is doing the same to me.. I want to pay... you hurt me.. I hurt you back, in other ways, that you find very important... like money, status or whatever.. its not the thing where you hurt me, shame on you...
I know this is wrong, and people have told me to leave him... He is a Zero, not a Hero.. lol.. Why do I keep answering that dang phone call... what is wrong w/ me?
2 answers - Asked By: Heartnmouth - 2/18/2011 |